I love you more than words can say. The English language has so many words and yet there are none that can adequately express my love for you. I had the desire to be a mom for as long as I can remember. I was the kid that loved to "watch" all little kids younger than me. When I first became a mom some people laughed at me because I loved to play so much with you guys. I'm sorry that I seem to do that less these days, the only excuse I can give is that the older you get the less time there seems to be in each day.
By the way, I'm sorry if I'm a little nutty. I know I can be silly, and I hate to say it but I hope to embarrass you at times throughout your life. I think you just can't count yourself as a good parent if you don't embarrass your kids at least a couple times. I don't mean just for the fun of it, I mean because I am doing something for your own good that you just aren't happy with.
Sometimes I probably don't make much sense. And there may be times when you are all older that you'll sit around a table reminiscing and you'll collectively laugh about some of my mannerisms, habits, and phrases I overuse. I know you will because we all do it. Not because you are trying to be unkind, it is a bonding moment for you and trust me, I know I'm not always with it. But I try :)
I want to be the best mom possible. I want to give you my undivided attention every time you ask for it, the very second you ask for it...but I'm not always able to. (And sometimes life seems to wear me down and if I do it right then the moment won't be as good as if I come to you refreshed from a good nights sleep!)
I'm sure sometimes it seems like I am being lazy or don't want to help when I tell you to figure something out for yourself. (Like talking to a teacher when you have a problem, forget homework etc.) Well, maybe I am lazy but that isn't why I do that. ;) I do it because I love you. I want you to be able to talk to people in positions of authority with confidence. I want you to learn how to do things for yourself while you are still home and have mom and dad to fall back on when something doesn't work out. I want you to have the happiest life possible.
Sadly, much of the things I say and do, such as saying I let you do hard things because I love you, you won't fully understand or appreciate until you are grown up. (Some of it you won't get until you have kids of your own.)
I do love you, each of you. I was so happy and excited when I was expecting each of you. And I love to watch you grow, learn, and experience life.
And most of all...I simply love you and I will always love you...no matter what.
With all my love,
Mom
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