But Mama!

"I'm a big girl Mama! I can do it!"
"I'm a big girl Mama! I can be careful!"
"I'm a big girl Mama! I don't need to hold hands."

These are the words of a 3 year old. My 3 year old, Lilli. Spoken on an almost constant basis..."I'm a big girl..." can be combined with almost anything but what it comes down to, what it really means, is that my baby is not so much a baby anymore. My baby is...*sigh* growing up.

Don't get me wrong it isn't that I don't enjoy her and all her stages but I've been through this 3 times before, am still going through it with all of them. I didn't realize it so much when Oscar was a baby. With your first you are so excited for everything, can't wait to see what they do next, but now with my 4th, I know what is coming and I know how fast it goes by. It seems to go just a little faster with each kid.

Lilli is darling, so fun, and it is a joy to watch her grow up, I just wish I could pause time once in awhile...spend some extra time in one of those wonderful moments that happen.

I go through this same thing with the other kids, they are getting so big, so old, so mature. (well the maturity has its ups and downs but so does mine.)

It is when I realize how quickly it is going by that I need to remind myself to be more patient, and enjoy each moment I have with them. But along with having kids and having the wonderful moments comes life. And life is about good and bad, ups and downs. So I will take the good with the bad because I love just having them in my life. But please can I just pause and live in the good moments once in awhile...